On Recovery x APN, Andy Silvagni and Dan Brody share the stage with special guests in recovery as they explore personal stories of trial, triumph, and treatment. During each one-on-one interview, guests share what life looked like before coming to All Points North Lodge, what they experienced during substance use and mental health treatment, and what life is like now. Alums reconnect with APN Staff members that played a significant role in their journey and share the incredible challenges and gifts they’ve realized during their time in recovery.
Just a quick listener note: this show contains raw conversation about drugs, alcohol, childhood trauma, sexual assault, active addiction, and suicide. It also contains coarse language. Please use care when listening.
Addiction Helped Me Cope Until It Didn't
Recovery x Dan
Welcome to Recovery x APN with Dan Brody and Andy Silvagni — a show about addiction, recovery, and life. In this first episode, our host, Dan, shares his own recovery story: how he somehow went from a party-loving 20-something professional in New York City to a 30-something going face to face with addiction. Join Dan as he walks through the struggles of his story and his journey to recovery.
I Had to Surrender to Overcome My Addiction
Recovery x Andy
Our host, Andy, shares his addiction recovery story. Andy recalls cold New Jersey nights when he attempted detox alone in his car, the desperation and sheer luck he experienced throughout his journey, and the long road that brought him to his life now: embracing his purpose and supporting APN clients as the Director of Alumni Services. Join Andy as he recounts his mental health journey, from the darkest hours to brighter days.
My Addiction Made Me a Person I Didn't Recognize
Recovery x Kyle
APN alum, Kyle, shares his recovery story: how alcohol distanced him from his friends and family, why he returned to All Points North Lodge for a second round of treatment, and what he’s learned from the meaningful relationships he’s forged along the way.
I'm Not Going to Let My Alcohol Addiction Win
Recovery x Katy
APN alum, Katy, shares her recovery story: how numbing PTSD from childhood turned into alcohol addiction in adulthood, the moment of clarity that brought her to APN, the reality of treatment and what she gained from her return to All Points North Lodge, and how she’s breaking the cycle with her husband and kids.
I Don't Have to Deal With My Trauma Alone
Recovery x Peter
APN alum, Peter, shares his recovery story: how a bad trip and marijuana triggered PTSD flashbacks that led to debilitating anxiety, panic attacks, OCD behaviors, and physical health symptoms. Peter shares how getting the support he needed helped him get to the root of his symptoms, address sexual childhood trauma, generational trauma, and dysfunctional family dynamics, and start healing.
Finding My Identity Outside of Football and Depression
Recovery x Marcus Smith II
APN alum and retired NFL player, Marcus Smith, shares his recovery story: how a lifetime of suppressing depression symptoms led to him almost losing his life to suicide. Marcus shares why he came to All Points North Lodge and how he learned to unpack his trauma and identity, get to the root causes of his depression, and discover tools that help him thrive in recovery.
Addiction Treatment Saved My Life
Recovery x Dave
APN alum, Dave, shares his recovery story: how he used alcohol to cope with childhood trauma until it consumed his daily routine. Dave shares how one phone call from a caring friend changed the trajectory of his life, pushing him toward treatment and helping him find healing.
Depression Treatment Saved My Life
Recovery x Dusty
APN alum, Dusty, shares his recovery story: how an injury ended his professional athletic career and triggered debilitating mental health symptoms. Dusty worked to rehab his physical injury but experienced a devastating separation from friends and family who didn’t understand his pain. When depression threatened to swallow him whole, he found support in a caring therapist, Shelly, who encouraged him to pursue treatment at All Points North Lodge, where he received the life-saving care he needed to heal.
My Addictions Were a Symptom of Trauma
Recovery x Elliott
APN alum, Elliott, shares his story: how childhood trauma and poverty created the perfect storm for addiction, the pressures of working in behavioral health while maintaining his recovery, and why he came to All Points North Lodge for trauma therapy with years of sobriety under his belt. Elliott recounts how he overextended himself professionally and personally after treatment, creating unescapable pressure, anxiety, and burnout. A return visit and the Professionals program at the Lodge helped him finally get to the root of his addiction, anger, and work addiction. From there, he could move forward with boundaries and support from the APN telehealth team.
I Am Not Alone in My Trauma
Recovery x Dahbra
APN alum, Dahbra, shares her story: how she turned to excessive drinking and drugs to cope with sexual assault during her time abroad. After feeling consumed by anxiety, fear, panic attacks, and embodied trauma, Dahbra entered treatment at All Points North Lodge, where she found hope, safety, comfort, and healing.
I Had to Open Up About My Mental Health to Win
Recovery x Turk McBride
APN alum and retired NFL player, Turk McBride, shares his story. Years and years of sacrificing his mental health for his physical performance led to a devastatingly abrupt end to his NFL career. After trying to navigate depression and isolation, his wife confronted him with an emotional conversation and encouraged him to attend treatment. At All Points North, Turk showed up with intention and learned to trust his peers enough to feel safe getting vulnerable. From there, Turk opened up and embraced the opportunity to become the best version of himself.
Families Do Recover
Recovery x The Brody Family
Dan’s mom, Debbie, and sister, Perri, share their experiences: how they watched Dan struggle with active addiction, how they learned to surrender and provide support with boundaries, and how they navigated the challenges of rebuilding a healthy family dynamic in recovery.
My Chronic Illness Stemmed From Trauma
Recovery x Abbey
APN alum-turned-employee, Abbey, shares her story: how she discovered that decades of stress, loss, inflammation, misdiagnoses, medications, autoimmune flare-ups, and fertility issues compounded as trauma, keeping her stuck in a cycle of chronic illness. After trying every healing modality she could think of, Abbey sought relief from trauma’s mental, physical, and social impacts with a stellate ganglion block (SGB). Her first treatment triggered an immediate psychological and physical reset. SGB paved the way for Abbey’s recovery, empowering her to maintain her newfound wellness, manage stressful situations, and live a life healed from the physical injury of trauma.
Treatment Gave Me Hope for a Better Life
Recovery x Ashley
In this special recording with a live audience of clients and staff at All Points North Lodge, APN alum, Ashley, shares her treatment experience and an update on her life in recovery. After previous treatment programs didn’t fully meet her needs, Ashley’s alcohol addiction brought her to a dark place with no end in sight. A loving push from her family helped Ashley find her way to All Points North where she was able to immerse herself in a safe environment and fully surrender to treatment.